today at school I ended up throwing away my banana! It was super bruised. I gave my apple away to my super skinny friend. I only ate to small slices and still felt sick.  I mean its an apple I shouldnt be freaking out right? Anyway Then at lunch I ate rice and yogurt.
I ended up purging.  but not all of it.  I am no pro and purging.. I rarely purge but something in me is telling me that its the best way to get rid my guilty consumptions.   Now I suffer the concequence, burning irritated throat.

So now I am home and I have the whole night ahead of me. I am going shopping  again haha. I hate spending money on food so I think I will be fine if I bring a bottle of water.

I hope everyone is doing alright.
: )

Today hopefully I will be better with my calorie restrictions. 
! Wish me luck & any tips about beating the hunger!

I have this friend. who is my height and my Goal weight. Its incredible, people in my school think she has an ED but really she eats  Jack in the box practically every weekend. Shes always eating hamburgers and fries.  Its just...incredible. I am so jealous and  its come to a point where I tell her myself that shes too skinny. But the truth is I want to be as skinny as her! Its so immature .. the way I feel but.  This is the first time I am ever speaking ( typing) about it ...

Another thing! another one of my friends is struggles with ana and has been hospitalized. She recently started on birth control. Biggest mistake of her life! she gained so much weight and its sad because she was such a perfect size. But I recently noticed she is losing weight again.  and its sucks for me as a friend because I want her to be super skinny again instead of encouraging her to be healthy.

dramadramadrama.